Now

Right now
I am not a part of this
I'm not controlling anything
Life is happening to me
And I just feel like
If life is an ocean
I'm sinking
Deeper
And deeper
Into the darkness below me

But I don't want it to win
I want to come back up
I want to breathe
I want to make my own opportunities
And have faith in myself
And my heart
And my mind
But right now

I just... don't know if I can...