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The worldFor some reason
When I'm with you
Nothing else seems to matter.
Like, anything could happen,
And I wouldn't care.
When you're next to me
And you're holding me
And you tell me you love me
You are all that matters.
In that moment
In those hours
You are the world
And everything in it
And all that I have to care about.
ScaredIt scares me a little
That I've stopped caring
About Cambridge and prestige
And people thinking that I'm clever.
It scares me that when I dye my hair
I get scared you won't like it.
It scares me that you're the first thought when I wake up
And the last when I go to sleep.
It scares me that I'm this much in love with you
It scares me that you have this much power over me
It scares me that I'd do anything for you
It scares me that you're leaving in 7 months
But most of all
It scares me that you don't know how scared I am.
Seeing my life"Do you...look at your life?"
"I thought everyone did."
Yeah, I think they do
When I look at my life,
I see the things I've done wrong.
I see him avoiding me in the hallways
I see her trying to hard to be happy
For my sake, partly,
And I see how much time I wasted
Crying over the wrong guy.
But I also see the things that are right
I see the right guy
Lying in my arms
I see my best friends laughing
And although sometimes I wasted time over the wrong guy
It taught me how to love the right one.
And it taught me how to shrug off disappointment
And it taught me that I am stronger than what life throws my way.
So when I look at my life
I don't regret the past.
I look to the future.
TumourThis day was nearly perfect
These moments of lying beside you
Wanting to tell you everything
Wanting you to know me
Wanting to know everything about you.
It kind of made me realise
That you've become a part of me
Without me really noticing.
"You grew on me like a tumour",
As the song goes.
You might as well be everything in the whole world
For all that you mean to me.
Please don't break my heart.
My favourite thing that you've ever said to me was
"I will always stay with you."
It was kind of a beautiful moment
And it almost made me cry.
It's my memory for hard times; thinking of it makes me feel stronger.
I'm happiest when we're lying together
And you smile that little smile
And you tell me you love me.
I feel safest when your arms are around me.
I don't care if people think we're too young to be serious.
I will decide if I'm too young to be serious about someone.
You're never far from my thoughts,
And most of the time I want you to be wherever I am.
Although I feel bad,
I'm really glad that you're spending the New Year with me,
Because I know that next year could be hard on us
And in some stupid way, being with you at midnight
Feels like we're strong enough to fight it.
I feel like I will never stop loving you.
I feel stupid that I have to write about you
Because I can't say everything to your face.
And I can't.
Call me shy,
Call me stupid and immature, whatever.
I would blush and giggle and feel even more stupid
If you were there in front of me.
This is because I am 17
And I am in love for the first time.
And it scares me.
But hey, most teenagers don't even do this much
And at least I know there's a chance you'll see what I write.
So hey, you-
I think you're amazing,
And I love you a lot.
Love, I guessI am in love with you.
I've never felt like this before
Never so happy
Never so safe
Never so comfortable.
I always associated love with fireworks
That one moment
When "the one" would kiss me
And it'd be magical
And we'd be instantly in love and get married and have babies.
But that's not love
That moment fades
It's magical, sure, and it's amazing
But that's a moment.
Love is that little smile that plays around your lips when we're together
Love is watching a film that you don't like because you're watching it with me
Love is missing you before you're gone.
Love isn't about one moment
Love is a mixture of moments. And you're not even in all of them.
Love is scary, and strong, and gradual.
But love is magical.
Is the most beautiful word
I have ever heard
And I didn't realise it
Until it fell from your lips.
It's right, right nowStrange
The way time changes
When I was with him
When I was unhappy
Time went so slowly.
Every day melted into the next
I forget the details of who said what
And what it felt like to be with him
Or to hold his hand.
But with you
In this moment of content
This peaceful happiness I get
Knowing that you love me
Time moves quickly
And I notice details
I can still remember your head leaning into mine when you kissed me for the first time
I can feel your hand resting on my waist.
I can remember big things
Like my birthday
And little things
Like the way I feel you smile when we kiss.
I don't know what it means
But time doesn't drag by with you.
And although time waits for no-one
I feel like the time we have together doesn't have a definite end.
There's no certainty that we won't be together in three months, or six months, or whatever.
It just feels right, right now
And I'm happy with that.
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